The big mess (Lies that bind part 3)

The more she fought the more her heart bled ….she could not get it …she didn’t understand how what seemed to be a perfect affection ended up this way ….it was like she was holding onto the edge of a razor blade such that by every move she made her skin was ripped off 🥺…For how long would she have to do this ……..

Her heart bled…Depression crept into her heart just like an army of ants invades a piece of sugarcane ……Tears would roll down her eyes a perfect indication of what was going through her heart ……she was broken…She was messed up …..

Her bed became her best friend, She didn’t leave it for days as she never wanted to face this cruel world that had robbed her of everything she has always wanted …..She couldn’t run to anybody .Since everyone was too busy with their own lives to care about the wretch she was…She felt unwanted, unloved, uncared for &forsaken the damage was already done ……she didn’t wanna do life again ….but the thought of suicide was super scary to her …she’d never dare attempt it …….

Some part of her still wanted to know what the future holds ….she wanted to know what would come out of her future! Would she be successful and happy or was this her condition forever …..?!

Her mother was never present for her she never cared all she did was brag of how smart her daughter was…Not knowing the battle she was fighting every day…the one battle that had crushed her whole being …This broke her the most knowing that the only closest person in her life didn’t care enough to notice all this

In school her grades were dropping at a wanting rate, she was drastically losing friends and everything around her was so gloomy ……she would doze off and drop things anywhere ….her mental health was worsening day by day yet they all didn’t know …….since even through all this she still managed to sneak a smile once in a while and reassure her fake friends that she was okay…

So on this day, she wakes up and she was like “you know what today Imma move on …am getting out of this bed and I am conquering no man and since no one cares I’m going to approach my dreams unapologetically and no none is gonna stop me !!! ”

On that day she ended things with him and decided to move on with her life…She ended it all and was now on a mission to let him and the rest know that she was not settling for less but for the best ( right decision wrong motive ). She vowed no man would ever come into her life she was done ……!!